There was this one morning that I woke up not really feeling okay and was overwhelmed with worries. So many things have been going on and I know I have to stop and relax. I retreated back on the bed, grabbed my bible, closed my eyes and hold it close to my heart. While I was I flipping through its pages there’s only one thing in mind – I want an answer, a resolution that would quite my soul. And here’s what I’ve got,
I read the whole chapter so as to avoid being out of context. I can’t comprehend at that very moment but I tried to contemplate on it.
What could be the bit and bridle in my life that is holding me back to see the bigger picture like a horse? Thinking about the worries and the challenges of everyday life and let it overcome me, I realized that it is indeed my bit and bridle. These are the very things that’s stopping me to enjoy life because the mere thought of it is already exhausting. So will I let it conquer the good out me and succumb to its consequences? I definitely don’t want to so I know I have to do something about it.
Thank you Lord that even in the midst of troublesome days, You speak to my heart and let me discern what is needed to be done.
I started writing back when I was in my junior high school. I usually write short stories where I always see myself in the lead role. And I do it because it helps me to express the feelings that I’ve been trying to suppress. So basically I write for my own satisfaction.
As years went by, so many things have changed from my perspective of specific things to how I make my decision. Yet one thing remains – I still write for my own satisfaction.
My husband, Kristoffer has this book “On Writing Well” by William Zinsser. He told me once it’s a nice read but never did it interest me in any way. Until I found myself engaged in it. I noticed how simple is the choice of words, the chapters are short and it was truthfully written.
I specifically like what he said “Now I’m saying you must write for yourself and not be gnawed by worry over whether the reader is tagging along.”
It was as if William Zinsser affirmed my very reason why I like to write in the first place. Later on I would make time to read a chapter every morning. It has taught me a lot and encouraged me to pursue my writing. And soon realized that writing is my first love that I have forgotten I have with me for a long time.
Here’s a couple of other reason why I write
¨ I want Isaiah and my future children to know me more in my writing.
¨ I want something to go back to and remind me of my thoughts, feelings and events that happened in my life and remember that in all of these things, I have one faithful God who has given me a good life to live.